I wrote a short blog about how busy I am, but I didn't really write a blog. It was just a preview because I was so tired. I want to write a blog about how busy I am because I wasn't totally prepared with the Anthem essay. I didn't make a cover page and had to make one in Mr. T.'s class. Basically I am making excuses to Mr. T. of why I wasn't prepared. Just Kidding I won't do that. It was really totally my own fault for not being prepared.
Also my essay was really lame. It should have wrote the essay right after I finished reading the book, but being the procrastinator I am I didn't.
Why do I do this to myself? Why am I constantly running from play practice, to voice lessons, and then to young women's, getting home at 8:00 and still having at least 3 hours of homework. Plus I have my mom who understandably wants me to clean my disastrous room, and do my part in cleaning the house. I also am expected to practice piano for 45 minutes, AT THE LEAST, everyday. (that would be a miracle.) Then I want to go on a bike ride, or go running. I wish that I were better at managing my time! It would make everything so much easier! I hate feeling like I am a day late and a dollar short. I know that I am pretty busy, but other people are just as busy and it seems like they can handle it so much better! I am not saying that I am, or have been in total chaos my whole life or even right now for that matter, but I am not on top of things.
The thing is I hate going to piano lessons unprepared. I hate coming to school late 3 times in a week because I have been doing homework. (I do this a lot.) I feel like I am cheating. It is not fair that I sometimes miss 1st and 2nd period to catch up on things, when everyone else comes to school for the whole time. In my defence I do not go home and watch T.V. and sleep. I am always doing something. Homework, practicing piano, voice lessons, or family things. I am the kind of person who stresses out about most stuff. Stuff like a big test, singing in church, 4 hours of homework that is can't do, or anything that is important. I wish that I could always stay calm, but I can't! It is so hard when I have a million things to do not to take out my frustration on the people around me. I feel so bad for my family sometimes because when I am especially stressed they are the ones who suffer. I will come home from school after a bad day and FREAK OUT at them. Then I feel really bad about getting mad so I mope around my house being sullen. I get mad at myself for getting mad at my family, so then I am sad because I know everyone is so annoyed with me.
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This is an excellent blog! It made me laugh so hard because it sounds exactly like me. It's so hard to do get everything done. I know that I have had awful nights where I have so much and feel very overwhelmed, but just remember to hang in there. You can complain anytime you want to about your busy life. :)
Hang in their Lizzy, that's pretty much how life is until you have your first child, and then your life is busy with completely different things, but at least their aren't any math tests.
Also, I think you're right, it's a lot better to be a stressed over having too much to do than to have nothing to do except watch TV, sleep and eat.
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